Last week I was in and out at JBC for some final meetings and then Tim and the admissions office staff had a going-away reception for me. I was nervous because I didn't know what kinds of questions I would get or if people would be encouraging or not. This has been a hard decision to make. The number one reason is that I hate letting people down. On the DISC profile, my "I" is touching the very top of the chart, which leaves me unbalanced in all other areas. Part of the "I" personality is that I am a people pleaser. I will make decisions and act in ways that I do not even agree with to please others. This decision is one that I knew would not please people that I respect so it was hard. Thankfully, the reception was lovely. I felt very appreciated and I know that I still have a JBC family right down the road. The food was great, lots of people came, I got lots of hugs and some going-away gifts, Jude got passed around by so many people that I look up to, and they were all encouraging. Tim found a dvd of my friends and I in college re-enacting Jurassic Park and it was playing in the background the entire time. Very funny. I won't even go into the vomit inducing commercial that I was in that they also played. It was a weird feeling to drive away from campus that evening.
I have wondered on and off about whether or not I made the right decision...mostly considering the economy...but I have to say, this feeling of freedom is glorious. Also, not having the heart-wrenching feeling of being away from Jude all day is the best feeling ever. I love that boy. I look forward to seeing what lies ahead in all of this. I just know that for today, I am where I need to be.
Bill and I went on our very first one on one date since mid August on Friday. Melanie and Wes watched the boy and made a nice picture presentation of the evening on their
blog. You'll have to scroll down to see it because Mel went buck-nutty and posted 9 posts in like a day. Anyway, we used our Red Lobster gift card and then went to see the Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Wonderful!!! Loved it. Cried so much though. I think this whole motherhood thing makes me way too emo!
Did I mention that Heather Brown is going to be here in a month. I can't wait!
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